It seemed to be that my doctors were no longer helping me.
I didn’t want to take more chemicals into my body, and they were no longer doing any good.
I tried to convince my doctor that we needed to do something else, but he wanted to persevere. I had taken so many medications that I could feel my mind slipping. More often than not lately, I was thinking about suicide. My doctor offered to give me another medication that would help with the depression that came from the previous medications I was taking, and I screamed no. There was no way I wanted to take more medication. I told him he had to get me off some of this garbage. I don’t know who mentioned holistic health to me, or if it was someone in the hospital or someone I was talking to, but the words holistic health were in my head. I called several pain management clinics and asked if they had anyone who worked with holistic health. One person in the clinic was talking to me, and told me she knew a physician who practiced holistic health. She gave me her name and phone number and told me to call her. The next day, I showed up at the office and talked to the receptionist. I told her I was there to speak to whomever was in the practice of holistic health. When a young woman came out and took me back into the office, she explained to me they use marijuana for many of their patients. I didn’t care how many patients used marijuana for their ailments, I just wanted to see if marijuana would help with my depression.